Unseen yet felt;
and loved forever
Just four months after the quads I became pregnant again. This time without medical assistance. Dave and I found out on the 29th of March, 2002 using a home pregnancy test. As we had an appointment already booked for the following Tuesday to see the fertility specialist we waited until then to have it confirmed. We were skeptically happy but waiting for the other shoe to fall. And fall it did! On Thursday an ulrasound was done and no gestational sac could be found in the uterus. Friday I was sent for a higher tech U/S and the sac was found in my right tube. I was given an injection of methotrexate. This is a chemo drug that is suppose to dissolve the tissue. I was devastated. What I thought was to be our rainbow baby turned out to be more heartache. Even though we had never seen our baby it was real to us. For this reason Dave and I wanted to name our child but as it was too small to know the sex. We needed to find a unisex name that would suit either a boy or a girl. We choose the name Ashley. Ashley will for ever be remembered as our fifth child loved and lost.
