Hi Burt

I am really enjoying your tapes. I listen to them every day. I’ve noticed I’ve had some feelings around the theme of “not feeling good enough” I’m starting to feel sad around this at moments especially my daughter’s birthday recently. I am so concerned (fear) at some level that I am not a good enough mom. I have been doing affirmations around this and have been asking the fear what it wants to teach me.

Spring is near and this sadness that I have mentioned before seems to be a pattern. I suppose this “stuff” is the result of the work that I am doing and that is a good thing cause I believe I will get to the root of it. Any input??

Love A.

Dear sweet A.,

Thank you for sending me your email instead of wondering and worrying. Please always ask me if you ever have a doubt as this is when the greatest understanding happens. These feelings that you have as not being a good enough mom is a pattern with most spiritually growing women. I have had hundreds of women speak of this pattern over the years. You see, when we are growing spiritually with greater love, we are also growing more sensitive to feelings. This sadness is not a bad thing but simply the softening of your heart and growing compassion. In the growth process there are many stages and the feelings of sadness is a common one. I never discuss these with people because they will soon experience it for themselves. This is why regular visits are essential for a few years until your love, inner beauty, compassion and clarity are stablized to the point where nothing and no one can shake it.

This is what I suggest so that you transcend this stage a little faster. Please follow these steps:

1. Accept your sadness as a natural process of your growing and opening sensitive heart. Mother Theresa, in her first experiences in India, was filled with sadness and she wanted to change things. Finally she realized that it is God’s love that is doing everything through her. Her energy increased so that even in her eighties she was working around the clock without tiring unduly. And she was found always happy, cheerful and filled with love for God. Do not resist your sadness but fully accept it. Every time you become aware of this sadness simply visualize your heart growing more sensitive, soft, compassionate and more understanding. You might even experience some tears as you allow this to happen. This is good.

2. Be happy that you are at this stage. Most people are so filled with the world, money, sex and shallow living that their heart is closed and that is truly sad. I remember when Bhagavan was confirmed by seeing his picture on a book and that my experience (vision) was real. At that point I was shaken to the roots of my being and there were many sad moments when I felt I didn’t deserve such an honour and privilege. Years later my sadness turned to gratitude (sadness turns to gratitude when it is fully accepted) and resolved to help people see and experience what I knew, beyond any doubt, that this is the truth of life.

3. Keep listening to the tapes. Make notes after you have listened and see if you have grasped the major message of the talk (which is often the title of the talk). If you find you are still not clear then send me some questions.

I was happy about your email because it is a clear indication you are growing beautifully. Spiritual growth has growing pains just like a teenager maturing into womanhood and manhood. It is growing sensitivity. Soon the sadness will become inner joy and love towards everyone even totally unaware people.

With much love,

Burt